a kick start meet up

The day that we've been waiting for a month and 4 days had just passed. That was the day that I finally met my lovely Sarah. The meet up was our first day out being a couple. which was considered as our first lovely date.

Oh well , what can i say about the meet up? it Was effing lovely and Fun! The happy feelings were burning in my heart when she's standing in front of me with her sweet lovely smile. The big wide sparkling eyes eye-ing into my eyes. and all i can show her is the wide smile upon my face. and thats the time when she kept on saying "aie , kenak senyum jak jak dari tadik? is there something on my face? *rubbing on her face with her tiny fingers wondering if there's anything on* "

The day that we spent time together was filled up with joy , laughter , love , giggling , stories , and more. While having my time with Sarah , most of the time I was looking at her big round eyes and just give out a smile. A Happy smile i would call it. Who wouldn't be that happy when ur love ones is there in front of ya talking , and smiling being happy around ya. Happy is the word for our first date and yeah. effing true on that. :D

Her big round eyes that i wanted to see since the day we dated were there , blinking and keep on soften my heart and gave a big wide silly smiles upon my face till i wanted to try to open up my big eyes to compete with hers. sadly my eyes is too Asian and it need the help of my fingers to open it wide to match her eyes. and i effing loveeeeeeeeeeeee her big round cute lovely eyes. :D

Really look nasty here. silly me. :D 

And i was really surprise for the gift that she gave me. OH CRAP. Really really am loving her to the max when i receive it from her. its kinda like asdfghjkl gila babi suka eh this Sarah. the love feelings keep on getting stronger and stronger eh for her. and I would like to say a big THANK YOU  to you Sarah! effing love u more and more each day. ur the greatest.

Back in those days when we kept on waiting for the moment of our first date, we were like a dead zombies who wanted to eat up real flesh so hard. and its kinda a sucky feelings when ur not there with ur love ones spending time together doing the couple things. but then the day strikes , it turn out to be a meaningful day out as the long period of time holding on the "waiting". and what can i say about it ? Sarah being lovely and spark up the day enlighten my life. The fire is burninggggg in between us. and i effing love that! 

She pinch whenever im being silly

She smacks whenever im being naughty

She laugh whenever i make out silly jokes

She smiles whenever i smile at her

She blush whenever i say lovely things about her

She says "i love you" whenever i ask "love me not"

She cares whenever i makes her worry

She lifts me up whenever im down

She kisses me back whenever i give her a kiss

She hugs me back whenever i give her a hug

She talks whenever i keep silent

She listens whenever i story telling

She shares out her feelings whenever she wants to

She poses out herself whenever we're snapping a photo together

She deletes off the photos which she thinks she looks ugly

She keeps all the texts that i had been sending

She reads out my blog , walls , and tweets every single day

She sends out a morning text every single morning. 

She complains things whenever she feels annoyed and paranoid

She hates it whenever things are crashing down around her

She makes up wonderful and lovely photos with her cam

She posts up lovely post in her blog , tweet , and fb

She listens to lovely and relaxing music

She gives me a hi-5 whenever i lift up my hand

She holds back my hand when i hold hers

and most importantly among all is that 

She loves me

:D

and i love u too Sarah! 

kish kis :B

a nice soft lovely kiss for Sarah

Freaking love u Sarah. 

always remember that. :D

sucky it is. i know.

"distance,fuck you.again,fuck you and again,fuck fuck you."

i know it seems kinda hard and such and im sorry being making it harder for not being there physically on a meet up. but then do keep in mind that i love you no matter what it brings. any difficulties and such , can be put aside and solve it within time and chances. I do believe that we can make it stronger and ever better by just feel the love that lies within. sometimes i may feel that i'm a jerk which i feel that i really am where for not being the best boyfie or whatever for ya. but then still , am grateful to have you as my gf who being there for me every seconds and understands me. where the hell can i find any other girl in such a way i feel comfy and can talk in the way that we understand each other. So yeah , you're the best , the coolest , the champ , and also steady. *which i dont really know how to put steady in a term of a single superlative adjective*.  

Sometimes the distance may be a fcuked up thing. oh yes , I agree to with her that i would say FUCK you distance. but what the hell. seems like i can't really beat the hell crap out of it yet. YET. so yeah. a bit disappointing. oh well. i may be weak in this relationship but i do try my very best to make things better and better in a way to make you happy and also cherish all the love within your heart. so far , things are all running smooth. the jokes , the laughter and the smiles are there for us to enjoy every single day. that is what couple should do to each other right? The things that she always fail to make me smile is calling me sayang and saying the i love you. once she forgot to say it , i'll ask the daily question which she would have already know already. there's no need for me to say it out here over and over again. u got me rite? :D

I know that if things turn out to be sucky in a case we caught up into something, i do still believe that we can still solve things up no matter how fcuked up the situation is. the best thing about her is that whenever i talk and she's in silent, she would keep on smiling and say "agik agik agik agik!!!!". it really shows how cool she appreciate the feelings that i have towards her. kinda like a magnet. north and south. attracted to each other with a force of  a magnetic field surrounding it. in this thing that im having with her is something which i never encounter before. explain it edi to her why it's different that i hope that she remembers it. the last time we met was wayy wayy so long ago, and i can still picture the way she smile where we still being friends. and the common things to say when we used to meet back then was the word "bossssssss" . together with a smile.

But things are different now. calling each other dear , the saying of the 3 words , the damn panic attack, me being paranoid android and so much more. this is how i feel when im in love with this girl name sarah. Sarah potter she calls herself. That is because she's a potter freak. and i was kinda surprise to find out that she's a big psycho fan. :D anyway , thats her. and i love her no matter what. 

"i have a complex mind,go figure. :) and yes,i am happily in relationship with a guy name Dick Cheney"

I notice things where they are different things today and the next day , things turn out to be different. the changes, on how she feels , and how she would re-act about it. whenever she's saying things which gives me a chill , i know something went wrong. like last night. phew , luckily it wasnt bad. but then the side effect turns out to be sooooooo soooooooooooooo out of the way. And yeah , i feel her and i understands why she feels that way. my my . she's the beauty. and every single day  the love in between is getting stronger and stronger.

 i love you Sarah! smack you up if u skip your meal. do keep on with the healthy diet meal there.

CASH cash CASH

the revolution for my financial this year is getting more and more fcuked up. Thanks to the problems that i had which i gotta to settle with cash. anyway , money turns the world round and round. without it , we eventually turn out to have a suffering lifestyle. cecen, have Faith in God. Be strong. and God will help you out. amen. :D

but sometimes when i think back about it.

it kinda gives me a shitty feelings.

wish i can turn back time

and make things

right!

The anger that stays in the heart which can be solve in punching and screaming things out.
uhhhhhhsaaaaa~ 

Dear Sarah

are

you

mad

at

me?

or

being

upset?

:(

 im really sorry k. 

and

I

Love

you.

and do get well soon. 

xoxoxoxox

asdfghjkl

I've done so many silly things in this life. for this post, im gonna share the stunt that i did back in Perlis at Bukit Ayer. One of the silly stupid bodo bangang stunt i did which is NOT safe to be try at home or any other places.

a reminder again for kids, do NOT TRY THIS

get me?

DO NOT TRY THIS!!

silly me.

:P

mind heart body and soul

The daily mind thinking of my brain is running wild this past few days. and i dont know im having this weird mind fuck. the daily wake up gives me an empty thoughts for my brain. and i dont even know why. maybe because of some problems ahead that i need to settle down with. cash flow problem? aint gonna solve it yet cause i really am running out of cash now. Ride problem? a big major big huge fucking problem that i dont even know how to solve. regardless of what im having in the present now , i feel relieve and calm for having my Sarah by my side. and I love her so much. my mind , heart body and soul is all im giving up for her. whenever im lost , sad, down, or fcuked up, she's there to lift me up and lighten up my days. and i love her for that. the memories that we share, brights up my day with all those daily smiles that came up from her. by just texting , on the phone, web camming and such , is way enuf giving me up the silly smiles.

wearing my blue cap is a big NO NO  for her as she says that i really looks like a 14 or 15 years old high school kid trying to be cool that can be categorized as a hipster. oh man. what the heck. i guess the cap have to GO GO then. rather than facing a NO NO from her. things turn out to be ok between us. just that things may be fcuked up a little in the meet up. but it's ok. we're trying our best to deal with it. To make sure things aint getting shitty or fcuked up, the trust and loyalty have to be maintain and keep up with the lovey things we have. I aint gonna let this Sarah go cause she's different from any other girls i've met. so yeah. a big big challenge for me to keep up in this relationship.


The morning text that i've been receiving from Sarah really can't resists to let it be there and get myself head back to my dreamland. a text from her is a must must must to reply. :D semangat habis. :D and that was when we're just texting. when we talk , the laughter and the smiles were all there shown up from ourselves. coming from the heart and it aint a fake ones. and hell i love her so much since the day we've been together. and now it's almost a month. the day im looking forward is the day when we meet up. can't can't wait for it to turn up

 

.her eyes.

Her pretty , round , and hugeee hugeeeee eyesssss which i can't takes my eyes off when im checking out her photos. thats just when it comes to photos, what else to say when we meet up. so yeah, the things that i've been looking forward is the meet up. dark round brownish eyes of hers. bena ka x , ku pun x tauk. pi nang steady la ur eyes dear. :D loving it. 

 

.her nose.

Her cute tiny little nose which can be caught in a flue and used to complain it all to me. naughty2 nose of her. and yeah , can't wait to give it a pinch. my my my my. really am looking forward in it ehhhhhh.. gilaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa babeng. 

 

.her lips.

Her wet sexy lips which i eager to kiss. bite perhaps. a soft one . and yeah. making making outtttt is a must . my my my . really miss you girl. :( 

 

:D

The black tiny cutie pie mole on her neck really caught my eyes in the first place when checking out the photos in fB. and hell yeah , looks niceeeee and sexy. :D 

Dear Sarah

cecen really miss u

and he is trully deeply madly in love with ya.

and do keep in mind to answer the "love me not?" daily question.